Infatuation with cousins

I am Karan, a Ph. D and involved in research and teaching. I come from upper middle class strata from South. My wife, Sahara, in her late thirties is really a beautiful woman with most expressive eyes and had the heart of Gold. She is so meticulous in everything she attempts and I feel that Gods have been really very kind in giving me such a wonderful spouse. She is 5.6 and can’t say he is slim, but highly proportionate. She has wheatish complexion and God has endowed her with ample bottom and complete bosom. She is a modern version of B. Saroja Devi and Vaijayantimala of yester years. She has lot of understanding and cares for me and for my career progression. She likes sex and likes to be cared and loved immensely.

We have a happy family life and have two lovely children and with the endowment given by my and her parents we can say we have all mundane comforts and life is cosy for all of us. I am in forties and very recently I got exposure to the ISS. I was preparing to submit a scientific paper in an international seminar to be held in USA and been collecting data from various sources in support of my hypothesis. Though the event would be organised only after six months, to enable the organisers to bring out seminar proceedings including abstracts in time, I was working overtime to send the same in time and in the process I was spending lot of time in laboratory and even after reaching I sit before the computer and browse for data.

As I was slightly neglecting my family I was feeling guilty and my wife started feeling monotonous with the daily chores and suggested we go out and spend a day freely. I readily accepted the proposal as I myself was seeking a break. On Sunday afternoon we went out to a nice restaurant for lunch and had a bud wiser beer for self while kids enjoyed fruit cocktails and shrimps. We went to a kid’s movie and then went for shopping in the malls. While Wife and children were making selection of garments, I was strolling in the mall and the attractive jackets on VCD and cds caught the attention of my eyes. I went in to the shop and was about to purchase a couple of X rated pirated vcds and suddenly saw my students coming in a group towards the shop where I was making purchase. To save myself from the embarrassment, I came out of the shop and did not dare get in again to purchase them. Afterwards we again had snacks and returned home and children slept immediately as they were tired.

Me and my wife sat before the TV and started watching the late night movie in the cable channel and both of us got excited seeing the erotic song sequences and we passionately kissed each other. While I fondled her mane and cheeks she caressed my limbs and we both climbed down to floor and entwined each other before removing the garments from our bodies. I was flabbergasted to see her beautifully sculpted proportionate body and kept admiring her beauty. My Sadhana asked me why I stare at her so ravishingly and I replied that she looked like an angle and started kissing her toes upwards. I took her big toe in sucked it giving her a kind of tickling sensation which aroused her enormously. I kissed her on her soles which sent her to dizzy heights. I took her heel and rubbed it against by beard which stirred her sensual pleasures. I decided to give her utmost pleasure to compensate the neglect and kissed her all over. I brought some ice cubes, tight in a satin handkerchief and slide it against the inside of her thighs. She was writing in pleasure and asking me to come over her and make love. I ignore her lovely request and went on to tease her by kissing her mound of Venus and nibbling the labia. I inserted my tongue in to her vagina and rubbed clitoris in a very gentle manner. Bit it gently and she could not control any longer and had a violent orgasm with her fluids gushing like lava.

I wiped the same with my lungi and we kissed passionately and fondled with her breasts. I held the breasts together and inserted my junior in between and Sadhana bend her head forward to catch with her mouth and with each jerk of mine she used to touch the tip of my member with the tip of her tongue.

Now I brought an ice cube, opened her labia and placed it on top of her clitoris and she started crying because of icy cold feeling. I held it like that for three minutes till it completely melted and started breathing hot air on it using mouth and slowly her clitoris started gaining sensation. Again I started nibbling the same giving her lot of pleasure and she had a minor orgasm and at this juncture I entered and had given gentle strokes. Before reached her climax I withdrew my junior completely played with her breasts, entered again gave her strokes for about 2-3 minutes and again withdrew and rolled my member on her belly. She he was pleading me to enter and give her orgasm as twice I almost took her near orgasm and denied it. I turned her around and entered in a doggy style.

This is my favourite position as after having two kids the vagina gets loose, in this position I would feel tightness and with each stroke my belly would hit against her bums making strange sound and it excites me much. Finally after about two minutes I released my load inside her and she almost came at the same time.

I realised that to pop up our sex life we need some external stimulus as we have reached a plateau state, monotony in our life as there is not much new in each other to explore. The passionate sex we had that day left a deep impression on my psyche and were looking for source of soul inspiration.

One day after returning home, when my wife and kids slept, I sat before the laptop to browse for data and got too tired. Suddenly I thought of looking for “Sexy” material on net and from the Google in came in contact with the ISS.

The index of stories in ISS was very impressive and read a few stores from the section entitled “couples” and office and teacher sex. Switched off Lap top at 3 in the morning and reached the bed where my wife sleeping. I was very much aroused and started rubbing her breasts and almost woke her up from her sleep and I had sex with her without much of foreplay. My wife was surprised at my odd kind of behaviour and asked for the reason and I bluffed that I watched some hot songs on TV.

This repeated for a few days and I kept on reading the couple sex stores, though initially I was disgusted with the content as they mostly talked about the illicit relations. I realised that the world is not so straight forward and full of sex starved fellows, of both sexes.

As the couple sex stories became monotonous I looked in to incest stories and was aghast with the contents. They are really horrible. If they are really true such person’s needs to be condemned and hanged in public. How a son can have sex with his mom. It was too difficult to digest. I was deeply hurt for some unknown reason and was thoroughly agitated. After a gap of 15 days again I went to the incest stories and read stories which involved sexual relations between cousins. Then I realised the reason why I was so much disturbed.

I have many cousins’ sisters from both paternal and maternal side and I have particular liking for two cousins, one each from paternal and maternal side. Maternal sister is an engineer and rather very short with height not more than 5.1 in comparisons to my 6 feet. From our child hood, about 10 years of my age, I had a deep liking for her and she also liked me very much in comparison to my brothers and sisters. It was nothing else but pure brotherly affection and I too had same feelings for her. She would sleep by side in my bed whenever I go to their come with my parents or vice versa and none felt anything about it. In front of all others she would hug me and everybody would be impressed with such open display of brotherly love. I got married first as I was elder to her by 10 years and subsequently she too got married to a software engineer in Bangalore. Whenever I go to her house she would hug me even in the presence of her husband and sometimes I get embarrassed when her breasts touch my tummy region. But he too did not mind our brotherly/sisterly love.

While this was going on and when my relationship with my wife reached a plateau state, I started fantasising about my sister. I was ashamed of myself for imagining my cousin in that way. I used to exercise self restraint and after a week or ten days, the fantasies over power me. I imagine that went to her home in Bangalore on some official duty leaving behind my family inn Chennai and when I reach her home she would tell me that her husband had gone to USA on a project and would return only after 3 months.

After dinner we both settle in a settee side by side and discuss all our family matters and members. We hold each other’s hand and slowly I put my hand over shoulders draw her closer and she rests her head on my arm and after some time she drops her head inn to my lap. I caress her forehead very gently and brush the forelocks of hairs backwards. Then touch her cheeks and rub them mildly and hold her lower lip in my thumb and index finger and rub them to show my affection. She also puts her hand over my shoulder and draws me closer and I rest my face almost on her chest.

At this juncture she makes herself comfortable so that I too can become more comfortable. We hug each other and relax mentally. I kiss her eyes, forehead and cheeks and slowly I rub my nose over her chest and touch her breasts over her nighty and press them. I kiss her on her neck and slowly come down wards. She is really endowed and had 38 size cups with a small waist. She presses my head over her breasts and slowly I bring my palm over them gently brush them first and squeeze them mildly. She gets aroused and brings my head closer and kisses me on my lips and we engaged in deep French kiss for loss gulping each other’s saliva. I slowly unhook the front buttons of her nighty and press her breasts over the bra. She at this juncture thrusts her chest towards my face and seeing her mood I unhook her bra and lift the cups to give liberty to her ample bosom which is still firm and round without much of sagging. I roll my thumb and index finger over her nipples to excite her and take them in to my mouth one after another and lick the areola for long till she reaches her orgasm. We then change our positions and she would sit up and I put my head on her lap with her sulking me like a baby by thrusting her nipple in my mouth. I hold her breast in one hand while I cress the other while sucking it. I lick the cleavage and play with her mounds for long.

After wards I relax and lift her to the bed room, gently make her lie on the bed, remove the nighty and remove the bra leaving her in her petty coat. We hug each other very tight kissing and fondling and she slowly rests her head on y shoulder and I hold her right breast with my left hand and she puts her leg on my thighs as she used to do when we were kids. Her round hard breasts crushed against my hairy chest and locked in each other’s hands and embrace give us bliss and we engage in kisses again. We again separate from each and I go on sucking her breasts one after another and rub my nose against her navel and slowly release the knot of the petticoat. She raises her bottom to enable me to slide it and she remains completely nude and I sniff and kick her all over. In the meanwhile she releases the knot of my dhoti and holds my member in her hand tenderly caresses it. We slowly exchange our positions to come to 69 and do everything to give each other a powerful orgasm. She would suckle my tool like a candy and make gyrations around the fraenulum to give me utmost excitement and taste my precum.

I sometimes release my load in her mouth and she lovingly gulps it without showing any sign of repulsion. We do it to our hearts content and sleep holding each other tight. When we get up in the morning I take her over mine our bodies touch each other’s and this body contact would give deep sense of affection. The thought of having sex, by means of vaginal or anal penetration with her has never entered my mind.

I fantasised her like this for many months and a feeling guilt was building in me. I wanted to restrain but could not do it. It became a compulsion and I was tormented with shame and enormous guilt. Though I have some child hood friends I could never reveal the same to him as certainly I would be despised. I was struggling to cope up and was deeply confused. It was not beauty that attracted her to me as her younger sister is more petite and beautiful and neither she had deep love to me nor I had towards her. They are sisters and I do not know why I was deeply attracted towards only one.

I thought for a while whether I should make explicit behavioural changes to make my intentions clear to her. If she too had similar feelings, she would reciprocate and ultimately we would end up having sex and satisfy our thirst. But at a later stage the feeling of guilt haunts us, till our end. There is every chance of being caught by our respective family members as such things cannot be hidden for long and sexual intimacy would get manifested in our behaviour which can be noticed by near and dear. Considering the consequences and not to disturb the tranquillity in her emotional state, I controlled myself and never dared to go to her home alone except with my wife and children.

It is true that my cousin loved me a lot as displayed from her hugging me. She liked me much more than she loved her own brothers and sister. She loved me even as a child of 8 years and this continued they she now entered her thirties. I heard and read that a woman does like to touch other man, except her own husband. Why did she feel so much love for me? Did she also feel the same way I did? I do not know.

At this juncture I happened to meet an astrologer friend who asked me whether I am interested in abnormal sex. I asked what he meant by abnormal sex and he said that anal sex and other kinds. I asked him what he meant by other sex. As he is a friend he was hesitant to reply me affirmatively and said that the planetary configuration in my natal chart indicted some kind of “vipareetha” or abnormal sexual behaviour and I asked him for how long it would continue. He replied that it would continue for another 2 1/2 years. All these two and half years I continued to fantasise and suffered from enormous guilt.

As I said earlier I have a paternal cousin who is younger to me by 20 years. She is 5.5, dark and has a very attractive face and curvaceous body. She also has deep affection for me always called me as Anna. I used to stare at the body of my cousin when she was around and used to put my hand over her shoulder for support and caress her back very rarely. Once I felt like squeezing her breasts when she came to me for an errand. But I restrained myself. I had fancied some thoughts about my cousin and occasionally fantasised her and guilt gripped me terribly. She was so innocent and loved me so much and I was tormented. Luckily my uncle lived in another city and the interactions with my cousin were very few and the very thought or sight of my cousin used to stir sexual feelings in me.

She looks somewhat like Tamil movie heroine of nineties who is my all time favourite, though she has neither good histrionic skills nor grace. I terribly liked actress and used to be glued to her moves and songs whenever they appeared on TV screen. My wife and friends used to say I am tasteless person and I used to wonder why I like her so much. I used to stare at her pictures and invariably fantasise her while having sex with my wife. I used to sometimes utter her name while doing intercourse much to the discomfort of my darling wife. Though I never had sex with anybody other than my wife, I thought of withdrawing some money from my GPF and go to Madras to spend a night with her and had made some clandestine inquiries with some acquaintances, which used to say that they can arrange a better actress. But I was adamant and wanted her only and but could not dare cheat my wife, who had been very loyal to me and dropped the plan to go to Chennai to fulfil my desire.

After reading the incest stories on ISS the realisation dawned upon me why I liked the actress. In fact I did not like the cine actress but to my subconscious mind she represented my paternal cousin sister. I deeply desired my cousins and fantasised about them. Like me many others had deep desire for their own family members. In my case it was cousins. In case of others it was for their own mothers, brothers, sisters and dads.

Is it not disgusting to have sex with own blood relations? We may be deeply drawn towards them, but should we not exercise control over such thoughts and feelings. Can we ever live happily after having sex with our parents and siblings? IF others come to know of it, what will be our position in the society? Can we hold our head high? Will it not prompt us to take the extreme step of bidding good bye to world?

In this website I see many writers, writing explicit descriptions of their mothers and siblings body and sexual behaviour. In this world there are many beautiful girls and boys and if you are serious and have patience one would be able to befriend with some body of your choice and would succeed in having an intimate physical relationship. Just for the pleasure of few minutes, why spoil a beautiful relation.

The editors of the site may consider not posting incest stores involving parents and siblings considering the long term consequences on our children. After reading such stories some body may take a bold decision of dragging their mother or sister to bed room forcefully. We all have children and imagine how u would react if it happens to your wife and son.