Fucked my nephew

My cousin had come back from abroad for her daughter’s marriage. She was my cousin but was a lot older than me. She also had a son who was few months younger than me. We were really good friends before he had left but at that time we were just 14 when he left and now i had turned 18 when he came back. I moved to their house to help them out for marriage a week earlier than marriage.

When I went to their house him my nephew (let’s name him Aryan) wasn’t as friendly with me as he was before leaving for abroad. He was being very formal and I really wanted to talk to him and do all sort of fun that we used to before he had gone. I was always looking for his attention but he never paid any attention to me.

One day they had lots of other people visiting them so I was baby sitting the kids that had come along with the guests in a room and then after few minutes Aryan came in the room to grab something. I thought it was a great chance to talk to him so I offered him to play cards with me as he really liked playing cards. First he smiled and then he said he will be back in few minutes.

He came back after a while and we started playing cards and started talking to each other recalling the memories from the past. After few minutes, as we were sitting on the floor, I put my hand down on the floor just to change my sitting position and i got pocked by a needle that was sitting in the carpet. As I removed my hand from the floor, little bit blood had come out. When he saw it, he grabbed my hand started cleaning the little bit blood that was there and asked me if I was ok. He rubbed on my palm with his thumb and said that I have beautiful hands. He was still holding my hand in his hand as we heard foot steps, somebody was coming in the room we were sitting. He let my hand go and walked out of the room.

I felt nice when he was holding my hand and praising it. I didn’t know about our relationship so I kind of wanted to fall in love with him as I was watching too many romantic Hindi movies. I didn’t really now that he was my nephew in relation and it matters a lot but I had no physical attraction of him nor I had thought of doing such stuff.

We used to sleep on the roof as it was summer and really warm at night and all beds used to be next to each other. When it was bed time he came on the roof and took the very last bed to sleep. I got up there and occupied the very next bed to him. When everybody was on the roof ready to sleep, his mom came to me and asked me to move away from Aryan’s bed but I pretended that I was sleeping so she didn’t ask me again and left further down to another bed.

After about half an hour when I knew everybody was sleeping, I looked over to Aryan and he was still awake. I pushed my hand toward him, he saw it and held it. I felt nice but soon after his hand moved up to my bed and he started playing with my hair and then cheeks. I didn’t stop him as i had seen lovers to play like that in movies but then his hand moved further down to my neck and then inside my kamees (shirt) from top and now his hand was on my boobs. I didn’t wear a bra at that time because i belonged to village and girls of my age in villages don’t wear a bra. I was little discomfort able with his this move but I let him do it. He squeezed them rubbed them played with my nipples but I let him do it even I didn’t want him to do all this.

Soon after he pulled his hand out of there and I was relaxed and then he put it on my stomach and he starting massaging it. It was as bad as squeezing the boobs so I enjoyed it. Then he lifted up my kameez and told me he wants to feel it inside so i let him do it again as it was on the stomach but he again reached on my boobs. I was sweating because it was first time a guy touching my boobs ever, but I guess he was getting enough pleasure so he tried moving his hand into my pants ( Shalwar) but this time I grabbed his hand, he again went to my boobs, He tried two more times reaching down in my pants but I stopped him but third time he didn’t let it go and I couldn’t stop him and he reached my pussy. He rubbed on it and I was feeling the heat and I got wet.

It was first time I someone had touched my this body part. After rubbing a while he inserted his finger inside. It was even a quarter inside me and I felt a great pain and pulled his finger out. It was hard for me to keep my voice low, he again put his finger in a pushed it all the way up in my pussy. I put a hand my mouth as I didn’t want scream out and wake everyone up. I held his hand there and I had cum by this time. His hand got all wet and my shalwar was wet coz I wasn’t even wearing anything under it. I just took his hand out and I was in tears as I felt a great amount of pain when he finger fucked me and I moved away from him to a different bed.

I couldn’t sleep properly that night and night passed and I avoided facing him next day but in the evening he found me alone in the kitchen and came to me in the kitchen. He apologized for what he had done a night before and to make him less guilty, I told him its ok I didn’t mind it, but i don’t want to do it before the marriage so if u want all this then u will have to wait till u marry me. He kept saying sorry and promised he won’t do such stuff again. So we started talking on different topics and he left. The next night it was cloudy out side so everyone was sleeping in the rooms.

I was in a room where all the ladies were and about midnight he came in room when everyone was sleeping, he woke me up and told me to come out. I followed him making sure no body sees us there and I came into his room, he got in his bed and asked me to lie in his bed too. I was scared but I did as he told me hoping that he doesn’t break his promise that he made to me during the day. When i got in his bed, he stared at me for a while and then asked me if he could kiss me, i didn’t want to but allowed him, he kissed me all over my face and neck. I was feeling the heat too, I was scared of loosing my control so I told him to stop and he did. Then he told me that he will marry me so we are going to do all this after marriage so why not before. I honestly believed him and said that in limits is fine but I won’t have sex before the marriage but he insisted and I didn’t want to upset him so I said u can do it only once but not tonight coz I am on my periods (but I wasn’t).

He said ok then but just stay with me and he started touching me again and sucking on my body and boobs. I didn’t know about French kiss so he taught me and sucked my lips. I didn’t like the French kiss in the begging but did it for his sake and when my pussy started watering and it got wet I took off from his bed and headed to washroom. He begged me to have sex with him that night as he was so horny but I somehow controlled my self and promised that I won’t meet him alone from now on so he doesn’t get a chance to ask to fuck me.

Next two days I kept lying to him that i was on periods but the three night after jus two days before his sister’s marriage. He came to my room and woke me up and asked me to follow him. I told him no because i knew what he wanted to do coz i had seen his hard tool in his shorts, he wasn’t wearing anything under his shorts so there was a huge tent on there. When i told me no few times he lifted me up in his arms from my bed and took me to his room. I told him Aryan please its not good doing it before the marriage. What if we don’t get married but he said baby please I want to make love to u, I can’t wait till marriage and i will definitely marry u and I was melted after seeing him in this situation.

I told him I was virgin so he has to be nice and gentle and he promised that he will. He took off my shit and started kissing and I was enjoying but same time I was scared too. He sucked on my boobs and squeezed them and rubbed them, my nipple were hard and I was too for the first time with him getting really horny. I asked him to come inside me now but he said wait a little more, he kept sucking on my body and then he took off his short and I could see the rock hard rod standing up. It was first time I ever saw a real dick. I grabbed my hand and put them on his dick. It seemed it was on fire, really hot. I didn’t know what he wanted me to do so I held it for a while and then let it go. I was waiting for him to put it inside me.

But then he asked me to suck on it. I was shocked as I had never heard of sucking on it. I told him no, then he grabbed his phone and played a video of his own with a white girl sucking on his dick. I told him that white girls are different but I can’t do it. He again started making innocent faces and started begging me to do it. And again I gave up on him and put his dick in my mouth it didn’t go much inside of my mouth as it was big and my mouth was small. He showed me the video to get an idea how to suck on it but I could do it any better so he said this much is good and removed my pant. I was already wet, he pushed his finger inside i felt the pain again and but i didn’t stop him. He kept finger fucking me for a while and then when I badly wanted him in me he put his dick on my pussy. It was hot so was my pussy, he rubbed on my busy with his dick and then slowly put it inside of me. It was just the head that came in me and i just pushed him away.

It was hurting, i told him. He said he will be gentle now. This time he lifted my legs up on his shoulders and put his tool in my pussy again it was hurting when it wasn’t even half way inside me. I tried to push him away but him stronger this time. I couldn’t push him out and then with one thrust but it all the way inside of my pussy. I was in tears because of the pain but when he took it out, my pussy was bleeding and there was blood on his pennies. I got scared but he told me it happens for the first time and he kept fucking me for about 40 minutes. He was experienced but I came twice while the session lasted and then finally he was done, his liquid was all on my stomach and pussy. I was completely broken and out of imagery, he took me in bathroom, cleaned me up and i went to sleep.

Next day i couldn’t get out of my bed and then his sister got married and everybody was gone, the guests and his father had also gone back to abroad. It was only me, his mom and him in the house i was also going to leave after one week but that whole week he kept fucking me everyday sometime twice in a night. He fucked me in the ass in my pussy, in my room, in bathroom, kitchen, in every corner of the house and every hole of mine. By now i had learnt how to give him a blowjob and hand job so we even did it in the car. But then i left to my house and he went abroad. I wrote him letters called him so many times but he never answered it and then finally my parents decided to set up an arranged marriage for myself. I still waited him but now my parents didn’t want to wait so I got married after an year and half. He still didn’t contact me. Now I am 23 happily married with my husband living in England.

But I still could get along with the time. I still wish I get to see him once again and ask him why he never even answered me once. At least could tell me to move on with my life leaving him behind. It bothers me a lot but today I am posting this story here hoping that he reads it and tries to reach me to give me all the answered of my questions.

My e-mail [email protected] please no guys mailing me for sex or anything because i wont make the same mistake again. Thanks